Some thoughts...

Not know why, I met them again after 5 years. 5 years ago, we were the same. We left our country and went to a foreign land. We left my family,friends, country behind. What we wanted was to persue our dream. We did not know anyone & anything in that foreign land. We started our new life in that small island. What i knew was uncertainty,fear or perhaps 'culture shock' surrounded me. I left home for the first time in my life. (well, i was just too pampered by my parents before this) .Everything was too 'well-developed' and 'systematic'. Rules & regulations were everywhere. U would get fine for small mistakes. This country imported geniuses around the world. Everyone was 'somebody' in their country. Challenges were everywhere. The environment was 'competitive'. Maybe I was not equipped to face all these. Just had a feeling that this land was not suitable for me.

I had make an important decision in my life. After spending 1 year in this land, I quitted and back to my country. Although my parents did not against my decision, I could feel their disappointment. Everyone around me was curious. They wanted to know why. In their opinion, the small island was a best place to persue my degree and work. But, I just did not belong to there. I joined a new course and wanted to start my new life. Things had not ended yet. I was haunted with all questions by relatives, friends, neighbours, school teachers. They thought i shouldnt be selfish and spending so much for my education as i still had siblings. I was tired & exhausted physically and mentally. I just did not understand why they cared so much or too much. It caused significant distress to my life and I just could not stand it. I just could not concentrate on what i was doing. Things just went wrong when u were emotionally distress!!!

Argg!! For the 5 years, i tried to avoid this issue. I never talked to anyone about this. I always pretended to be strong. It looked like a ulcerated, necrotic wound deeply inside my heart. However, this had come to the end. Time was the best medicine for any 'trauma' i guessed. I wanted to move forward and continued what i wanted.

I talked to my these friends. Although we had not met for years, i found one thing in common. We really worked very hard for surviving. Life is too tough sometimes. Relax and have fun at the same time. Happiness is much more important!!!

Erwin, Emmy & Kin seng...batu pahat is a small town. Nothing much can explore. Hope u all really have great time!!! thanks for coming. All the best in the future...