Some thoughts...

Not know why, I met them again after 5 years. 5 years ago, we were the same. We left our country and went to a foreign land. We left my family,friends, country behind. What we wanted was to persue our dream. We did not know anyone & anything in that foreign land. We started our new life in that small island. What i knew was uncertainty,fear or perhaps 'culture shock' surrounded me. I left home for the first time in my life. (well, i was just too pampered by my parents before this) .Everything was too 'well-developed' and 'systematic'. Rules & regulations were everywhere. U would get fine for small mistakes. This country imported geniuses around the world. Everyone was 'somebody' in their country. Challenges were everywhere. The environment was 'competitive'. Maybe I was not equipped to face all these. Just had a feeling that this land was not suitable for me.

I had make an important decision in my life. After spending 1 year in this land, I quitted and back to my country. Although my parents did not against my decision, I could feel their disappointment. Everyone around me was curious. They wanted to know why. In their opinion, the small island was a best place to persue my degree and work. But, I just did not belong to there. I joined a new course and wanted to start my new life. Things had not ended yet. I was haunted with all questions by relatives, friends, neighbours, school teachers. They thought i shouldnt be selfish and spending so much for my education as i still had siblings. I was tired & exhausted physically and mentally. I just did not understand why they cared so much or too much. It caused significant distress to my life and I just could not stand it. I just could not concentrate on what i was doing. Things just went wrong when u were emotionally distress!!!

Argg!! For the 5 years, i tried to avoid this issue. I never talked to anyone about this. I always pretended to be strong. It looked like a ulcerated, necrotic wound deeply inside my heart. However, this had come to the end. Time was the best medicine for any 'trauma' i guessed. I wanted to move forward and continued what i wanted.

I talked to my these friends. Although we had not met for years, i found one thing in common. We really worked very hard for surviving. Life is too tough sometimes. Relax and have fun at the same time. Happiness is much more important!!!

Erwin, Emmy & Kin seng...batu pahat is a small town. Nothing much can explore. Hope u all really have great time!!! thanks for coming. All the best in the future...

Christmas party @ 2007

christmas party @ boren's house, batu pahat 26 December 2007

meet my fellow batchmates..

eating at the VIP table

photo in front of the christmas tree..

what so interesting ah..the gals & the birthday boy

only preetha looks at the camera..cheese :)

necklace from secret santa

my secret santa:dina...thanks so much.i like the gift

special thanks siewlian for the photoes..

I still looking for the gp photo we took that night, just wonder whose camera was it?

memories @ kampung othman..

c2/05, thanks everyone to make the community project a big succeed..

little pondok @ the school

plants @ the sekolah agama

housemates of the day: ann, aziah, little baby boy

nice bouquet at the house

the indian dance's dancers..

me & the performers for the cultural night

my current groupmates (r)preetha,me, jingwern& soon han

me & azman

more photoes, pls visit my friendster..www.friendster.com

What the Holidays Mean To You?

For you, the holidays are about emotional connections and bonds. You are happiest being around those you love.

You celebrate the holidays in a offbeat style. You believe the holidays are for doing whatever you feel like - and some of your "traditions" are pretty wacky.

During the holidays, you feel magical. You love all of the decorations and how happy people are. You like to sit back and take it all in.

You think the holidays should be energetic and packed with activities. You'll double up on caffeine and sugar if that's what it takes to get you through them.

Your best holiday memories are of childhood foods and traditions. You secretly still wish you believed in Santa Claus.

What Your Handwriting Says About You?

You are a fairly energetic person. You know how do pace yourself, and you deal well with stress.

You are somewhat outgoing, but you're not a natural extrovert. You think first before you act. You tend to be independent, rational, and logical.

You are balanced and grounded. You know how to get along well with others.

You need a bit of space in your life, but you're not a recluse. You expect people to give you a small amount of privacy, and you respect their privacy as well.

You are somewhat traditional, but you are also open to change. You listen to your head and your heart.

You are a decent communicator. You eventually get your point across, but sometimes you leave things a bit ambiguous.

Community service @ Kampung Parit Othman

15 & 16 December 2007 were special days for the us. All the semester 10 students were heading to Kampung Parit Othman 2 days 1 night for 'kampung angkat' community programme. We were having health screening, exhibition and talk programme, telematch, 'gotong-royong' and staying there for 1 night in respective family. Special thanks to all the commitee members, fellow batch colleagues and kampung peoples to make the project a great success. And of course, the lecturers that came and support us!!!

I was involved in the health screening programme, telematch and gotong-royong. I was in-charged of adult vision acuity test with shangkeree and hajar and cleaned the religious school with my current o&g group. As it was raining in the evening, the telematch ended up to be in the religious school's hall. I was in the red team and had so much of fun. YEH!!!! I stayed with aziah and ann in my keluarga angkat's house. It was a precious experience for me.It was my first encounter staying in kampung. I had so many 'stupid' questions to ask. Really sorry for that. However, I survived... Haha..

**coming soon..some photoes i took during the community services.**

O&G rocks!!!!

O&G posting officially came to the end. I had a short holiday, around 6 days before my last posting, surgery started. I realized that I had not been updating my blog for a long time. Although O&G posting was hectic and tiring, I really had a good time. I had a lot of hands on opportunities that made me more competent. I scrubbed in for the first time to assist surgeries, conduct deliveries, set up intravenous drips, stay up the whole night for the calls and try to stay alert the day after for clinical teaching. On call was really challenging as I needed at least 8 hours sleep a day for me to function normally. I realized the challenges and difficulties that faced in the O&G career. The 'meconium baby' incident made me understood that mistakes could lead to morbidity and mortality to both mother and baby. Special thanks to my group members preetha, jingwern and soon han for the support. I could not forget to learn swabbing and tightening pads from my fellow friend. (well, u knew who!!!haha..) Life was more easier and fun with the presence of u all.

I never forgot how nervous was I the first time I scrubbed in to assist operation. It was an emergency lower segment caesarean section for pre-eclampsia. My hands were freezing and I could feel my body was shaking. I was lucky enough to really functioned as a houseman at the end of the operation while the houseman had scrubbed out to assist another operation. Bleeding occurred for unknown reason when the surgeon tried to closed the wound. The surgeon had to reopen the suture and stopped the bleeding. The experience was precious. In my mind, I really hoped that I was the one who performed the operation one day!!!:P Surgery was 'addicted'.The second operation was elective LSCS with 1 previous scar. The surgeon faced difficulty to identify the lower segment of the uterus due to the adhesion. The surgeon accidentally hit the left uterine artery. Blood was shooting up to 90 degree like a fountain. Blood was everywhere. I was shocked. However, it was amazing that the surgeon could identify the source of the bleeding and ligate the uterine artery cooly and calmly. The bleeding stopped at last. I realized complications could happen any time and the most important thing was how we dealed with it.

Time for a break...

Christmas is coming, & you can feel it everywhere.........

santa clause, christmas trees

& snowman

cherry bloosoms

in the world of christmas

Me

WE went lunch @ wang kok restaurant @ Pacific mall. That restaurant served hongkie food.

fried zhu cheong fun

with XO sauce

cheese baked rice with roasted pork

sausage pancake

What i bought :Some christmas cards,a belt & a bag (not shown in the pic)