Grey's Anatomy-A Change is Gonna Come

CHANGE IS INEVITABLE!!!!!!
Yeh, after 9 months if not mistaken, grey's season4 is back!!!Finally finally....

Episode Guide

Having just returned from her honeymoon with Meredith, Cristina searches for Burke, but he's nowhere to be found. Meredith, Cristina, Izzie and Alex spend their first day as residents with their own groups of interns - among the interns are George, repeating his intern year after failing his exams, and Lexie Grey, Meredith's half-sister whom she has never met. Now that Derek's relationship with Meredith has reached an emotional impasse, he looks to his fellow doctors for friendship; Bailey wrestles with her place within the hospital now that her former interns report to new Chief Resident Callie; and Richard resumes his position as Chief of Surgery.

From ABC.com Grey's Anatomy

Survival of the fittest!

24 September 2007, 10AM

This was the most memorable day throughout the paediatrics posting. First day @ SCN and yet encountered unforgettable moment in my life. I started to realize what 'SURVIVOR OF THE FITTEST' meant and how lucky for those who had undergone it. Life was fragile and not all could come this world uneventful. Just do not take things for granted!

MESSAGE from labour room: A 26 weeks twins pregnancy primi, experienced sudden contraction. Upon arrival, found that she was 2nd stage of labour. MO & HO in charge immediately rushed to the labour, well followed by 3 medical students as well.

MO: 26 weeks ,Twin!!! Nobody will know what happen upon delivered. Prepared warmers, suction, oxygen, ambu bags, larygoscopes......

A: Only 1 heartbeat was detected! and yet the rate & volume were....(sounds like prognosis was not that good)

After few minutes, the twins were delivered. No cries, floppy, no signs of life....

weight: 0.5kg & 0.6kg

No active resuscitation was done!

I looked at both twins. So small.....no so tiny......

I stood there for a few minutes. I was speechless and did not know what to do. Just kinds of feeling and yet dunno what that.

Life is fragile. Not everyone survive when he/she comes to this world. Some may need help (resuscitation).

How lucky you are & Appreciate what you have!

This 2 weeks really drove me crazy, portfolio2, correction for portfolio1 and yet had alot of problems, CFCS only just started.

and DEADLINE: 3 October 2007

I felt so tired. Coffee at night,Stayed up late at night and struggled to wake up in the morning. Sleepy during afternoon session (Oops, hopefully no one aware..)

{well, alert only in the morning as SCN was just too interesting...resuscitation, umbilical artery & vein catheterization, knowledgable MO and nice HOs, tiny babies that struggled for survival...etc.}

Life was just up side down.

Started to notice that i had not been reading..Grrrr...feeling so dumb and stupid!

Am i complaining too much? i'm a nagger especially when i'm stress. I try not to complain too much and yet my mouth just cant stop. Oops, any genetic reasons behind this? Haha.. or female likes to complaint.( wana to prove it? just do a randomised controlled clinical trial)

Okok, I survived first minute of life although quite struggled actually, i was a forcep baby. My mum claimed that my head " too big", could not come out..haha

And sure i can make it. I MUST FINISH EVERYTHING ON TIME!!!!

stop stop, time to continued my cfcs report, hopefully can finish by this weekend

换换爱 - 缺氧mv [complete version]

春天慢慢一點點發芽

快樂開始都有了想像

旋轉木馬前那個廣場

愛情開始滋長

想你有時會缺氧

嘴角不自覺上揚

這是不是幸福的症狀

不知不覺有缺氧

無法移動的夢想

就算沒有人鼓掌 我也不會受傷

不會稀釋的信仰

心穿越磚牆 在你的身旁

想你有時會缺氧

嘴角不自覺上揚

這是不是幸福的症狀

胸口微微的發燙

不知不覺有缺氧

Adjustment disorder

I just back from my house. 3 hours plus drive, really tiring and exhausted. My back was aching and i kept on yawning. Glad that i drove back safe & on time. I really struggled alot since this morning. I dun feel like wanted to come back. I knew it was impossible but my mind & body just abeit out of control. This was my first trip back home after 2 weeks @ batu pahat. Due to my cfcs final visit, I spent less than 24 hours at home. However, my family, good food, familiar environment cheer my life up. For the past 2 weeks, life was up & down like roller coaster. I never forgot my first portfolio (deadline was 2 days after i was informed) & having food poisoning at the same time. Haha, I still survived and finished on time. Of course, on the other hand, bbq nite & food tour with hwee hwee really changed my view about batu pahat. Maybe i ned to open my heart to accept new things. Life will be much more easier. I should not keep on comparing life here with seremban. Am I having adjustment disorder? However, I really missed my room @ Blossom Height.Just so much differences..!!!! Here are some photoes...

place where i slept, studied...

master bed..

spacious..place where i played ping pong!

& my laptop with my 'lazy'chair..

bathroom & toilet

Celebrity faces

First Day Of School

3 September 2007

I woke up around 7am this morning, mentally & physically fresh. Semester 10 was officially started. The whole batch were having briefing was at IMU white house level 2, around 8.30am. IMU BP was located in the white banglo near hospital BP. We pleased to meet our coordinator Dr Lai, and other lecturers like Dr Velu, Dr Kathir & Mr Istiaaq. Even Prof Ramesh & Dato Zaki came from seremban to meet us. Everything was so new & different compared to previous semester. Really had a feeling I was back to those old days. First day to kindergarten, first day to primary & secondary schools, first day to uni, first day at seremban..and now batu pahat. I was blurred. Multiple briefing sessions were held to lead us to get used to the system. Semester 10 was about portfolios, cfcs reports, log book, ward work, on-call...We were trained to be 'functional' pseudohouseman. Wow, there was so much to learn & long way to go!!!

Batu Pahat,here I am!!!!

31 August 2007 8pm

I spent around around 3 hours to pack my staff, made final arrangement of tomorrow schedule. Phoned the landlord @ batu pahat to reconfirm that we're moving in tml. Just dun know why, I felt anxious, uncertainty. I went to bed around 11pm, could not sleep even after 2 hours on bed. I switched on TV on watched astro until 3 am. I only slept for 3 hours that night.

1 September 2007

I left earlier than my parents as I still had some stuff to pack. My family went for 'dim sum' & da bau some for me as breakfast. Everything went smooth. Thanks dad, mum & little sister, Mun Mun for helping me to move. I was able to move all my staff with 2 cars (wira & spectra kia).

We left seremban around 10.30am & reached around 1pm. Batu Pahat is really far far away. Just wander why imu chose her as teaching hospital. Unlucky for me, things just not went quite right. The house was still renovating & dust was everywhere. Mosquitoes were everywhere. My room was really in bad condition. I had to wear shoes to prevent my feet from 'pricking' (? wood stick injury). 'My god! I'm going to stay here for 6 months!' My initial plan was sleeping on the tilam I bought. New semester started next week & i had to move in by this weekend. After some negotiation, the landlord promised to ask his wife & daughter to come & clean. My family & I went out for lunch.

My first meal was 'fish ball kuey teow soup' @ fuji restaurant at the town. I really no mood for food but I still finished it. By the way, I always finished my food no matter what. My parents recomment to buy linoleum as flooring & 'mosquitoes net' to cover my windows. My brain got empty. Luckily i came with my parents. I really missed seremban. For ur information, i moved to seremban by my own with car & without problem. I was not as tough as I thought.

We stayed @ Crystal Inn that night. At that time, I really hoped that i stayed there for my 6 months of training. I shared bed with my little sister. We went Hong Yun Restaurant for dinner. Wow, food that was super delicious. We ordered 4 dishes. My recommendation were curry chicken with bread, fried kai lan (vegetable)...yummy!! After dinner, we went The Store to buy..well really a lot of things. I even bought 1 shirt & 2 pants. It only costed rm 29.90 each, wow..I could not get this price in kl. Hehe..fanstatic!!! We went back to hotel after that. That was a long night. I kept on thinking of my future 6 months' life, how to arrange my furniture........n i slept Zzzz

2 September 2007

We woke up early this morning. The hotel provided free breakfast for 3 people. So, my dad had to pay extra $ for 1 ppl. The breakfast provided was not much of 'surprise'. Really typical malaysian breakfast. I ate some breads with strawberry jam & butter, my coffee..Appetite was not as good as my other family members. I asked my dad to buy me a bed so that i could 'survive'...n surprisely he agreed. This sounds better...

We went back to the house after all. All my housemates had shifted in. well, their rooms were not as bad as me. Haha...Nothing to proud of...no lah..They were really tough!!! We cleaned the rooms, toilet & windows. My dad fixed my cupboard & wardrobe. Of course, my windows were covered with 'mosquitoes net' & 1/2 of the floor were covered by linoleum. Everything were done in around 2-3 hours. Well, it was effective!!!!!

Life in batu pahat was about food. We went to seaview restaurant for lunch. This meal was much more nicer that yesterday. We ate fish rolls, fried duck with bread (abeit like beijing fried duck)...yummmy....my appetite was extremely good. A question in my mind at this time, 'will I gain weight after 6 months? yet to confirm.

My family went back in the late afternoon. I spent my evening tidied my staff.

***yeh, finally can online****